Deeper Feelings

For the past few days, I have been debating what to write about this week. Despite having a list of topics ready, none felt right.  Life has been so busy, and everyone, myself included, is starting to feel burnout.

Since becoming a mother, I’ve noticed that anytime my son experiences a fluctuation in his mood, I often feel similar emotions. With the chaos of life, my son has been having a tough time, and his mood reflects that. As the school year comes to an end, I know he is feeling tired on top of all the other emotions life brings.

It’s hard for me as his mom to see him struggle. I do everything I can to help him label his feelings, talk about what’s going on, and be there for him in any way I can. Despite my efforts, I still feel the pain he is going through. It’s both a blessing and a curse.

There will be many events in my son’s life that evoke emotions of happiness, sadness, frustration, and everything in between. It’s part of life, and even at a young age, it’s good for him to learn from these emotions. On the flip side, it’s difficult to watch him experience frustration or have a hard day. I would love nothing more than to handle every obstacle he faces. But what would that teach him? Would it allow him to understand how the world is? Would it help him build self-confidence? No, it wouldn’t, and I know it’s my job to guide him in learning rather than solving everything for him.

Why is this process so hard? Will it ever get easier? Truthfully, I’m not sure, and that’s okay. One thing I continue to learn on my journey in motherhood is that sometimes it’s just hard. It’s tough to accept that I can’t shelter my child from everything but happiness. That realization has been one of the hardest pills to swallow lately. The feelings I have for my child and the struggles he faces are truly eye-opening. Perhaps it’s a blessing in disguise and one of the many ways to stay connected. Maybe we can learn valuable lessons from the challenges and emotions our children experience. Whether it’s about communication, understanding deeper feelings, or becoming a better listener, I truly believe we learn as much from our children as they do from us.

If you’ve read this far, thank you! If you find life chaotic, I hope you take comfort in knowing that it, too, will pass.